January 12, 2010 Blog Entry

My first day of work did not practically start off great. There were some miscommunication though I'm not going to elaborate it.

The feeling while I was sitting on my chair until I said "it's a day!" is kind of sad. I don't know where this is coming from. Maybe, it's part of me adjusting to a completely different environment and completely new found strangers. As of now, I'm still not comfortable with the feeling but I AM LOVE, TRUST and POWER. That's who I am! And I refused to be sinked into the hole. In the end, I am MY TRUTH!

Just a while ago, I felt that I am alone but when somebody cheered me up on facebook and when my mom called I told myself that even if there are BIG challenges in life, I can surpass it because I have a lot of people on my back ready to support me and continue to love me for who I am.

Life is not easy and I accept that. Sometimes God gives us surprising challenges not only tot est us but also for us to see how far more we can go to be what we want to be and to get what we weant surpassing all the trials. At the end of the day, God wants us to say "It was all a piece of cake!"

A victim today

Today, I made a terrible mistake.

My brain won today instead of my heart.

This is not me.

This is not my truth.

I should've known better and whatever I feel now is because of the choice I made.

I was asking myself, "Why are you doing this?Why are you like this?"

I'm going back to my old self again and I don't want that person anymore.

I've seen the better me and I only hoped the best for me.

What happened to me today is totally not the best. I want the best.

Move forward are the keywords!

Move forward Bibang, move forward! You can do this!


~ I am LOVE. I am TRUST. I am POWER! ~ This is the real Bibang!